Has anyone else tried to build a relationship with anyone and then realize 1. It’s so much work, and 2. Every emotion that comes along with it is like exposing a raw nerve. Welcome to BPD and relationships. Interpersonal relationships to be precise. Or really relationships in general. Why are they so fucking hard for us (the people with BPD)? I will tell you why: 1. Fear of perceived or actual abandonment. 2. The need to be validated. Constantly. 3. Not knowing yourself. So if you don’t have a sense of who you are, how can you build a healthy relationship with someone else? 4. The thoughts of not being good enough for anyone. I have a person in my life, whom I ever expected to meet. Wasn’t looking for anyone, definitely didn’t think I would meet someone where I ended up meeting him. What am I doing? Trying as per usual to fuck it up. Cause why do I deserve to be happy? Why do I deserve to be cared about? Why do I deserve to be loved? They’ll just leave eventually...